January 24, 2005

• there's this away message that i wrote....that i really like....

  
  

  "yesterday i told myself that today i'd do what i was supposed to do the day before.  here it is tomorrow and i think it's all gonna have to wait another day.  or two."

  
  

  i'm a procrastinator by nature...all too-much sometimes....i even procrastinate writing in xanga.  some days, i have a mental list of about ten million things that i want to do before i die.  other days i'll lie in bed staring at the ceiling, paralyzed in fear, scared that i'm going to make a mistake...sometimes even before i begin.  every day we convince ourselves that the path we're on is the right one.  but we never really (really---like totally for sure really) know. 

  
  

  i've thought a lot lately about what success means to me...and honestly, i'm not so sure of the answer anymore.  i know a guy who some days has the ability to wow me with his wisdom...and yet other days manages to convince me that he has almost no brain cells.....sad to say that the latter happens much more frequently.  he told me that success and sacrafice go hand in hand.....  so i think to myself, maybe i'm too selfish?  i dont know....i never really liked the idea of hard work.....never really liked waking up at 6 am....never really liked getting dressed up in a suit every day......but, i think to myself, who DOES like it?  

  
  

  you ever see the movie office space?  great movie, by the way.  there was a line in that movie where the lead character, peter, said that every day was the worst day of his life.  in truth, i know exactly what that felt like.  every single day was worse and worse and worse....until finally death seems like a fantastic alternative.  hating life is surely not a good way to live.  i think people should tell their job to go fuck themselves.  on a very large scale.  it'll never happen, this i know.  however, wow!, it would be nice...

  
  

  anyway, i'd finish the entry....but i hate finishing what i start.  instead, i'm going to.....procrastinate for a few minutes.....then sleep.  and repeat.

  
  

  on another note....cheap tacos = love

  
  

  http://www.menupages.com/restaurantdetails.asp?neighborhoodid=0&restaurantid=340

  
  

  they have 1 in Forest Hills also.......there's a shitload of these types of places in manhattan and queens.  it's scary how addicted to this shit i am.  i'm scared that one day i might order wrong and be subject to the "no taco for you" wrath.  oh well.  all good things come to an end, i suppose.

  
  

   

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